Good God

It's pretty late and alas I am still awake. I think I am just full of excitement because Nathan is here! :D Right now it is 3:02 AM.... I suppose that I am feeling pretty good as of lately. I am just sitting here drinking a Smirnoff and listening to Sublime and waiting for the sleepies to come and get me. I am telling you what, I am feeling soooo stress free right now and that is not the alcohol talking. lol. Like I previously posted I feel so liberated and I am going to stay this way. Today there was a test because some people were saying some really mean things about the way I parent Indiana and Nathan was upset about it... but I brushed it off and told him not to worry about it. Before I would just internalize what those people were saying and I would have cried for hours if not days. LOL how PATHETIC! GOD I FEEL GOOD! I don't know what exactly sent me over the edge, maybe just a compilation of years of misery finally just exploded at a single moment. It doesn't matter though because I am glad it happened. I am never going back. EVER! I can breath now. My mind is beginning to work again. It is ridiculous how bogged down I have been. I don't know if anyone quite understands what I am feeling right now, but that's okay. WOOHOO!! Well anyways.... just wanted to say I am doing well and that is all. PEACE!